Im going to try to keep this short and straight to the point...

Wife and I both (30) have neighbors who are married in (30s)

Since they moved in (over a year ago) we have become friends

3 to 4 months ago Husband let us know they are swingers

Showed us videos/pictures of them, and his wife

Wife and I have had multiple convos about everything and the idea of it all (both of us so far are opened-ish to the idea of it all)

Last weekend we went over there, had drinks, watched some fights and after we were done his wife went to bed. So we all continued to drink and eventually went to our place to have more drinks and listen to music

Overtime the lifestsyle conversation was brought up and some heated/sexual converstations lead to us talking about my wife and I and him and his wife sex and etc

Now the drinks have been flowing for hours now and at this point I start dancing with my wife/making out and he joins in on dancing behind my wife( didnt concern me though, but also didnt ask me if he could)

Now its very hot and heavy and im very thankful she ask me if its ok to turn around and dance with him(knowing they would probably makeout as well) so she does and they do

This goes on for awhile, dancing and making out with me for a bit and then him as well... and I can tell my wife is enjoying it and that was hot see

For me though I just wasnt sure how to feel... I didnt hate it but I also didnt love it. To present day im still trying to understand and figure out what I feel (Also it ended with that after some time, didnt go any further and then we called it a night and best part of it all we had some absolutely amazing sex after!)

But I think.. 1. We didnt have a talk about her wanting to experience something like that and if she wants it to go further in the future(which I dont blame her, if anything I blame myself because it was very booze driven and just happened) 2. I can't tell if I feel somewhat insecure now or if im jealous because I want to also have my own experience like she did.. overall my feelings are a big ?? 3. Also I dont want to make it into a thing were its because you did "this" means i get to do "this" but part of me feels like. Yeah.. I want to have some fun as well.

Apologies. I tried my best to keep short. Thank you if you read this!