So without going into details I had a very traumatizing childhood, causing me to be a very private person and basically never enjoyed trying anything related to the bedroom, I came from a very religious family. After a failed marriage and finding my forever I’ve been wanting to explore more when I say never enjoyed sex I never knew what female pleasure was til my hubby now. This being said I’ve enjoyed trying new things with him and have always been curious as to what it was like to be with the same sex cause in my family it was an embarrassing situation. I’m finally learning how to be comfortable in my own skin but also have trust issues with men. Is it wrong of me wanting to explore and try swinging to one prove to myself the world isn’t gonna end if I enjoy something that used to be frowned upon? Is it wrong of me for feeling like it will give me a better sense of trust with my spouse? Like help us connect even more then we do? Am I being selfish ? How does someone who is shy even begin to start and keep privacy for the sake of our children? Help me I have no one to talk to!