For starters, this is a burner account I created to keep us anonymous.

We have been together for eight years now and married for six months. We had originally agreed to not have our bachelor and bachelorette parties involve strippers or strip clubs. Her friends planned a party for her, and it did involve going to a strip club. This opened up a discussion about desires.

She wanted to go to the strip club for the experience. She’s never been to one. After talking it over, I revealed that there’s been a few things that I haven’t been able to experience…but a different extreme.

I didn’t get to experience many sexual partners because I was in two very serious long term relationships when I was younger (one of four years and then this one at eight years). Because of this I haven’t had many sexual partners (only two, including her). Neither has she (only two, including myself)

I told her that I would like to try having a threesome. Even if it came down to escorts since I know she’s not into women that way. Of course, she wasn’t thrilled about it at first, but after discussing my reasons for it she realized it was just a fantasy and I’m not trying to run away with anyone!

I asked her if she ever felt the same way or if she’s ever been curious about trying a larger dick. She said she’s never had it cross her mind and she doesn’t have a desire to try a well endowed man. Not sure if she’s serious or just trying to protect my feelings. I would imagine the ladder. I’m a little thick but pretty average length (6” length, 5.5” girth).

She eventually thought about it and said “if you get a threesome, then I get a threesome” so we discussed it more. Being on the other side I wasn’t so confident hahaha. What if she makes sounds or expressions I’ve never seen before? What if she loses desire to have sex with me if she meets someone else who performs better? Insecurities really. Sometimes I think I do want to see how she’d react with a larger man but at the same time it scares me and I don’t think I’d be ready for the visuals or sounds.

Since I wasn’t ok with that yet we dropped the topic so nobody would feel rushed or pressured. When it was brought up again she said she thought about it some more and she doesn’t think she can sleep with another man. But she might be willing to let me have a threesome but with some rules. I can only have penetrative sex with the other girl orally. Anything else is with my wife.

Now it sounds great. I basically talked myself into a duo blowjob but I know my wife isn’t into women sexually. It would only stand to benefit me. So I discussed swinging and she’s open to the idea but she also fears how she’d react seeing me having sex with someone else. I completely understand because I’m not sure how I would feel either. But the idea of us having sex with other partners together, sounds very hot to me. I’ve been fantasizing about my wife being double penetrated but again my insecurities come in. What if she likes him better? What if he’s significantly bigger and when we swap partners, will she even feel me after someone significantly larger stretches her out?

Sorry for the rant but my brain is kinda all over the place. One part of me wants to try it but another part of me is scared about damaging our marriage.

Any stories (good or bad) or advice would be appreciated.