I’m the F half of a long time marriage, deeply in love and new to the LS, about a month in. We’ve had only one encounter that we felt was positive. We’ve reflected on the experience and are continuing to build a connection with that same couple. We were approached by another lovely couple closer in age and very similar to us in relationship status, length, time period of meeting. I was really enjoying our chats and looking forward to meeting with them. And randomly, twice now, there have been some photo and chat exchanges from the other F that have elicited unexpected feelings of jealousy on my part. My initial thoughts are… she is a bit smaller/thinner than me and totally my husbands type and I’m just feeling threatened. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a fine piece of ass myself. But I’m 5’ 10” and athletically built. Probably about the same size as her male partner. I think it’s just a classic body insecurity thing coming up for me.

My issue here is how to approach it. Just because something feels scary to me doesn’t mean I should run the other direction. Pushing myself and growing through this process is part of the appeal to me. But it’s also supposed to be fun and enjoyable and I have really been consumed with not amazing feelings about it twice now.

Also worth mentioning. Come to find out after the fact and as I’m expressing these feelings to my partner. The roles and feelings were totally reversed with our first couple. The other couple and I were really drawn to each other. He is built like a Greek god. My husband is also a real looker and well built guy. But this other dude is like 250 lbs of pure muscle. Definitely my type. She is also beautiful, similar to my size and I think we were all very attracted to each other. But I think the hubby put on a brave face and played very secure in order to let me have my fun. Now I’m feeling like I should extend that same courtesy.

My husband is wonderful and supportive of my feelings and needs either way. But I don’t want to make this a lopsided endeavor where I’m calling all the shots.

Figuring this shit out is hard… help an annoying newbie out. Be gentle, I’m a sensitive soul even though this might not have read that way. Appreciate this community.