Last night, fiancé and I played with another couple. She’s hot, he’s not. I took one for the team but honestly I’m sick of it. I feel like I have so little options when it comes to playing. It’s not fair that I look over and see my partner fucking a hot female, them having amazing sex and me having to fuck…that. Last night, I only stared at my partner and imagined him inside me instead. The couple got up to leave for a bit and I told my partner I was really not feeling him and I was only doing this for him. He could sense it and we left short let after. I was willing to take one for the team because I love him, but honestly I’m tired of it. I look around at our LS friends and it’s all hot women with larger men who don’t take much effort into their appearance. I love them as people and love going to parties and chilling with them but the physical attraction isn’t there. I deserve to like the people I fuck too. Swinging should be about both of us having fun. Well it’s not fun when only your partner and the wife are enjoying themselves and the husband is slobbering all over me and I’m wanting it to be over.