Hey there! My wife and I are pretty new to this life (been to a couple meet and greets and have had 2 mfm plays) and we have good friends that just started this life too.

Wife and I have been together for 12 years and married for 8 and have 2 young kids together. I say all this for context for being established as a couple for quite sometime. There has never been any affairs or any infidelity of any kind.

Currently she is the only one who plays and it’s never separate. I would love to play too but she says she’s is extremely jealous and won’t share me and I just really struggle to understand her perspective. I respect her boundaries and haven’t pushed her into finding couples or single women and have never had any sort of infidelity in our relationship at all (a previous boyfriend cheated on her multiple times but like I said we have been together for 12 years and married for 8 with 2 kids, it’s been a long time since that happened).

We will get together with our friends (we don’t play with them) and everyone is swapping stories and talking about all their fun they get to have and I’m literally the only one of the four of us who is not allowed to to explore things and have any extra attention at all. It’s just so frustrating, I’ve got nobody to talk to about this and just wondering if there is anyone in a similar situation or if this is even semi normal.

I struggle to understand my wife’s perspective because I don’t get jealous of sharing her. I’ve told her the only thing I get slightly jealous of is seeing her getting texts from a few different men that are pursuing her meanwhile I’ve got nobody at all that contacts me (like even just friends and we have already covered how I’m not allowed to play with others currently).

Sorry for the long post , just needed to hear from some others I guess.