Husband (46M) and I (42F) are meeting another couple tonight for the first time. This is just a get-to-know-you, as they are more into knowing playmates first - so nothing intense will happen. Husband and I have talked about this, our boundaries, what we're looking for, expectations, and how this is a new step in our relationship. We've looked at profiles together, vetted couples together, and have talked about our why's. I've made sure to check in with him because he has more anxiety in general. We've had ongoing, open communication. This is something we've talked off-and-on about for years and now that we've really dug in and are making it real - and this is something I've wanted and am the "instigator" so to speak - I'm suddenly nervous. Like second-guessing-myself nervous.

I mean there's the obvious unknown that we're venturing into, what the implications could be, what changes will happen...will it all be okay? And yet, our communication has never been better or stronger. I guess I'm just hoping that some of you seasoned swingers out there had sudden first time pre-game jitters. I feel crazy, lol.