We're in the process of moving and we were cleaning out my old desk. In it was a sticker from an old band my roommate from college was friends with. BP had expressed that he didn't feel comfortable with me hanging out with these people back in the day and I continued to ignore him so to him, this is a sore spot. Nothing happened between me and any of the band members but they did come over to my apartment a lot and drink with my roommate. Anyways, I had gone to a show of theirs one time and got a band sticker. It's been in my desk ever since. We've moved the desk multiple times but I've always been the one to clean out my stuff when we move. BP started cleaning and asked me for help. We opened the drawer and went through it. He wasn't paying attention I thought and I took the sticker once I saw it and put it in the box. I've always hoarded stickers and just kinda thought he was going to demand I throw it away and didn't want that to happen. I don't know why I thought this was a good idea but I lied and said I threw it away. The problem was that we hadn't moved at all and I was no where near a trash can. He looked at me like I was clearly lying and I fessed up that I lied but the damage was done. I apologized and thought about it more for a few days and apologized again. I got a text just a bit ago from him while he's at work stating "I can't get over the sticker thing. It's like everything's been torn back open". I could feel a cold sweat run through my body when I read that. I had a feeling that something was wrong but didn't know what was up and didn't know how to ask. I just responded with that basically.

My obvious problem was that I lied about a super tiny thing. It was way too easy to lie too. Like scary easy. I don't know why I lied and I'm upset at myself for lying about a fucking sticker of all things. Now it's calling into question everything again. He's mad at me and rightfully so. I can't believe I could just lie like that. I have therapy Tuesday and we will be talking about this. I need to get to the root of why I lie to begin with. This is fucking ridiculous even for me.