It’s been just over a year since she left me, over 2 since I found out about the affair. Does this fuckin pain ever go away??

Just when you think you’ve made progress, something triggers a memory and BOOM. I’m in the bathroom trying to hold myself together so the kids don’t see me breakdown.

I’m angry all the time at her for what she did. I’m pissed off that she gets to live a happy life with her new boyfriend (who looks EXACTLY like her AP) I’m angry that her AP is back with his wife. Why does he get to wake up with his children everyday and tuck them in at night?

Why was I the one who had to lose everything? I know I sound like I’m complaining or playing the victim, but everyone else gets to live the happy life except the guy who got fucked.

I know people say therapy, which I’m going to, but I’m still so angry and filled with emotions. I just feel like there’s no hope for me. She gets happiness, he gets happiness, I lose everything. I’m sorry. I just needed to get that out. Thanks for listening.