While I'm not comfortable sharing the specifics of my situation, I was betrayed badly and when I confronted him about his infidelity he had zero remorse and refused to stop the affair (in fact, I was made to feel like I was the bad guy for not "accepting" the affair). I am emotionally devastated and as much as I hate him for how he treated me, I miss the "good part" of him (yes he was probably 80% evil) and part of me still loves and misses him. I still cry at night wishing I had his arms around me and that things were different. I miss our deep conversations and connection (in fact, I don't think I'll find another connection on-par with the one we had). I just wish I could rewrite history and change things. Additionally, he was emotionally and physically abusive (he inflicted several bruises) but I still can't help the fact that I really miss the good part of him. That's what makes this so hard. Does the pain ever stop?