I am not sure why, but I feel like I have been discovering a faith that is not my parent's or anyone else's faith. I guess what I mean by that is I have felt conflicted on my sense of justice and the faith that I have grown up with. However as I have prayed I have seen faith that does not seem like I am faking it half the time if that makes any sense. It made me realize many of the ill's in this country are not just political (violations of our civil liberties, perversion of institutions, etc), but spiritual. Growing up I grew up in a relatively conservative household, so civil liberties did not seem like something God cared about. However through this process and other things in my life I have actualized that I realized would be of God if he existed: one of freedom, justice, and independence.

Long story short in praying I was lead to pray against tyranny and a few other things related to the woes I have been going through. But I felt I needed to continue to pray against tyranny not just for me, but for my country. It made me realize a peace of the puzzle I had been missing, even before this happened. I am not saying everyone needs to find religion or whatever, but I realized the hatred of the encroaching authoritarianism was not just me sperging out about politics, but a call to prayer. I will still engage in activism and promote liberty and voluntary human interaction, but I realized many of the problems are not just flesh and blood, but spiritual forces. I will proceed to knock myself off my soapbox.