So I went on a weight loss journey this year and have gone from 438lbs to 337lbs. I feel like I will always be super morbidly obese. I know this a drastic change for 12 months but it's so frustrating to see how much I've lost and then also see how much I have to go. I also get frustrated when I'm wearing XL t-shirts and still in the 300s the body dysmorphia is mentally killing me. I'm not sure even what I'm asking. I just wanted to vent for a minute I guess. I guess I just hate that the number on the scale does not look like it matches my body I constantly get told someone would never guess my weight based on how I look or how active I am (I ride and race BMX, take spin classes, pole dance, and work 12 hour shifts on my feet) can't wait til my body matches who I am on the inside. I have transformation pics on my page