So 5 years ago I was over 550lbs and my sister asked me to go on a diet with her. Specifically the keto diet. I did really well. I lost over 200lbs. My lowest adult weight was 316. I felt amazing and I was proud of myself. I felt like I could be beautiful. My husband and I moved into our own place and with the stress of moving and all that, I gained weight. I spiraled into bad eating habits, binge eating and feeding my addiction again and gained most of that weight back. I am unsure of my current weight. I have a 400lb scale that errors out when I step on it so I know I am over 400lbs. I need to start fresh, I need to motivate myself into believing I can do it again. I am 41. My father died when he was 46 and he was over 600lbs. I am scared. I feel like I am living on borrowed time and I don't want to feel that way. I need to start again, I need to believe that I can get there. I need help.