I started thinking of ways for a painless death. Everything was a tragedy since the pandemic. Brother had stroke, mom got hospitalized, dad died of Covid, now my sister is diagnosed with myoma. My mental health worsened and work said that my performance went a downward spiral. Savings were gone, now I’m drowned in debt. Lost friends because I can’t pay them anymore, my 9 years partner left me. Now I stopped eating and it’s been 2 days. I am not still committing because I am thinking of my mom that would be hurt but at the same time there’s no one that would possibly help me. I don’t know what to do anymore? I wanna die of a painless death but at the same time i still want to fight for my family.