I’m trying to find a reason why people, other than the family/friends or partner, of the person would care if they wanted to die. I’m not trying to condone suicide, but I keep having a debate in my head about this. If I’m thinking that I’m useless or have nothing to reason to be here, why would others try to stop me? There are commercials, hot lines, songs and all that but if I feel that I’m a burden, why stop me? It’s a waste of effort, money and resources to use on me. I sound like an asshole because it’s like I’m saying to ignore it even though I know that’s not right or healthy. I keep thinking about doing it but I’m telling myself I can’t only because I have debt to pay off and I’m splitting rent with someone. I want to disappear but I also want to be happy, I feel like I’m faking it because I’m making excuses to not do so but I really don’t have much to live for