I went to tell one of if not my best friend about ho lovecraft and one the deity’s he made that being shub-niggurath. I hope you can see where this is going cause this is how it went. Me:you ever heard of hp lovecraft Friend:a lil Me: well lovecraft is a racist so don’t get mad at me or slap me, one of the things he made is called shub niggurath Friend:is disgusted my opinion of you has changed

Now I’m in deep shit cause they tried being mature after three days of no contact. Basically she wanted to know the jest of why I did that and I got angry cause she kept saying I was being racist. I couldn’t see what I had done wrong and I hurt them so much I felt like they where in the wrong. I’m such a piece of shit I feel like I don’t deserve to be around people. What if I get worse I don’t wanna be racist I just want things to work out but when I speak I just get angry.