I’ve thought about killing myself plenty of times but would never do so because of all the effects that could happen. I haven’t attempted anything and I’m not sure if I ever will because I can’t go through with things. I’m in therapy and I have two therapist but I only told one that I had suicidal thoughts. I’m not trying to seek attention but I’m my head I keep thinking, just do it, you wouldn’t and you shouldn’t. These thoughts rotate through my mind pretty much daily now. I know there’s plenty of people going through worst shit and I’m bitching about stuff like this and I haven’t attempted anything. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. If I could pay off my debt and other bills all together and somehow have everyone forget about me, maybe then I could do it without worrying about everything and everyone else.