I had planned to kill myself this Monday, but last Thursday I confessed it to my boss and hugged him goodbye he told me "Why on Monday, why not last week or in 3 weeks?" and I know he wasn't trying to encourage my suicide but I felt like "yeah? Why not today?" so I went home and took 1.8 grams of Duloxetine some milligrams of Quetiapine, a glass of vodka and some dimenhidrinate to aliviate any possible nausea.

Well

It all went like this:

After 45 minutes of taking the pills I was very confused but still conscious.

After 1-2 hours I started feeling how each part of my face was relaxing and I couldn't walk anymore

After 2-3 I started retching like crazy, I have emetophobia and that did not stop me or made me afraid at all, I just wanted to vomit it all out, all of it. Nothing came out

After 3-5 hours the pain in my stomach was unbearable, my spine would get chills that felt like knives and that would run through my limbs just to "explode" in my hands, I could feel like if someone was on top of me or blowing air in my ears

After 5-8 hours all my body started shaking, my eyes specially, I could not feel my fingers anymore, later I knew I got hypothermia. I would say I got a convulsion at this time, but I'm not sure, I just remember feeling like everything was blacking out and then pain all over my body.

After 10 hours I went to see my mom because the pain was the deepest I had felt in my life. My mom naturally wanted to take me to a hospital but I refused and didn't get any medical attention.

After 24-36 hours, my pupils are still VERY dilated, I can barely walk, I couldn't read until last night and I got a severe dehydration, I'm still in bed right now, hoping the pain will go at some point.

It isn't just going to sleep and never waking up my friends...