I wasted so much money on a stupid concert and now my manager is threatening to fire me because I missed so many days from being inpatient . I really don't care if I get fired. My car is breaking down, I don't have any close family or friends, I only make 200 a week and can't stop spending, my boyfriend dumped me and I'm still depressed over old friends. I really just want to die . I hate being in Texas. I hate being alive , I just feel like I shouldn't be here and suicide definitely gives me peace of mind that I can someday leave this place. Which is comforting to me. I probably won't live past 50 after my mom, dad and grandpa die. Because I have no reason for living. And if any Fort Bend Cops are reading this you can shove it up your ass for making me miss a week well 3 weeks of work .