I really don't get why I can't kill myself I want too maybe if I was feel better physically and had enough money to live in a society but I can't afford that shit. I kinda just don't understand why there's so much judgement around suicide. Idk maybe the pain will last for months until I have money and time. Probably not worth ending my life over , but just suffer. Life just sucks . I just wish I could just kill myself without everyone freaking out like it's such a big deal . I really hate people . People can be so annoying, I understand it's because they love you but I just want to die in peace without all this guilt for suffering . I just hate being alive for others .