I'm not sure how people handle work and school with a mental illness. I can't afford therapy since I need to work and I've been in and out of jobs due to mental illness. I would take disability but my mom wants to use it for herself as well to help around the house since she's a single parent. I'm 22 fyi. I have to get up to go to work in 5 hours but I can't sleep and I've called off too many days during my first couple of weeks. I'm trying to get through these few days till I'm off. I have a Dr's appointment on Monday to speak to my Dr but she's only a GP and can't do much to help. Just probably put me in a mental hospital , here in Richmond TX I can't find any good mental health places and I only have 3 dollars in my accounts so I can't do much. But luckily my absent father sends me money I might ask for some to cover the bills. I can't sleep so idk how I'll make it into work, I really don't know what to do or say to my manager. I just don't want to go in. I tried to kill myself today because being alive is too exhausting for me , but my boyfriend talked me out of it and said I should call in. I feel bad for missing so many days but ill call in rn or three hours ahead. I don't mean to take off so many days but maybe I can get a note or something. I ended up punching a hole in my wall as well and cutting myself not too deep also just compulsively scratching my skin till its red and inflamed. I really don't know how I'm going to go in. I probably will call off. I mean atleast they have to pay me. I can somehow make 200 bucks last if they fire me for not being there. Well I'm going to message my manager around 5am or 6 and say I can't make it in for atleast two days . I feel like my mom will look down on me for quitting my 5th job but I really don't care. I wish I could find a way to kill myself , but its so much trouble. I just want to be dead and gone . But due to my mental health I can't own a gun which is bullshit imo. But anyways any ideas on what I should do