I'm so tired of obsessing over my boyfriend's friend I'm at the point of wanting to hurt myself or do anything to escape this. My bf is trying to help but I just get more and more aggravated by it , but I know he's trying to help so I'm trying to not get annoyed. I've been behind in school for four months and out of work. And my mom can be very controlling and thinks me being out of work and behind in school is due to my boyfriend introducing me to weed and is trying to tell me how much of a bad influence he is in my life. Even though we have been together for three years. Edit: I'm FTM and my bf friend stopped talking to me because I am a psychic vampire and I'm just too depressing to be around and I can't vibe with her or her family. I really have my bf and I'm just so tired of him and everyone at this point. I want to end my life but I can't with my boyfriend. I am just looking for any way to escape this . I feel like I can't handle it anymore. Any medication or anything I can take. I don't want to die , I just want something to make the pain hurt less.