It's fucking humiliating. I can't even have a normal conversation with people, people laugh at me behind my back. When someone says something negative to me, I can't even articulate a good come back because I'll just fucking stutter my words. It makes me want to just blow my head off. I can't wait for the day I can legally go into a store, purchase a gun and just end it. I'm too much of a pussy to do it any other way. I don't know any criminals so it's not like I can just buy one off the street. Life is hard enough without a speech impediment. It's why I don't believe in God. Why would he create someone with such a humiliating condition? If I could talk my life would be fine. I feel so ashamed of my stutter, I feel subhuman. I cant wait till I never wake up. I've never wanted something more in my life. I love my girlfriend, the family I talk to and the few friends I still have. But I can't even look at them anymore because I feel so ashamed of my life and stuttering fucking fool I am.