I think I've been called those more than my own name all my life.

Where do I even begin? Literally every family I've ever known, including 4 different foster families, has abused me in more ways than one. Every friend I've had has either wanted to use me to feel better about themselves, or just use me to get their dick wet. Every boyfriend I've had has ended up sending me to the ER. I've been hooked on uppers for as long as I can remember. Done a lot worse than that more often than I'd like.

I've reached a point where nothing really matters anymore and for the fourth time in my life I've reached a point where I'm pretty sure I'll try to kill myself again. I'm so fucking done with the world and want to end this.