Over the past two years I've lost 5 people that mean a lot to me. I've been a severe state of depression, and I haven't been able to get out of it. I've tried to talking to friends, and my significant other, but everyone is so busy with their own lives to even talk to me about it. And when they do have time, they just sit and stare at me without offering any type of support.

On top of that, my mom is dying and there is nothing I can do about it. Shes trying her best to stay around for her grand kids, but I saw her cry for the first time going through all of this and it breaks my heart. She's the only one who's ever unquestionably had my back and there's nothing I can do to have hers. She's my rock and I know that once its final, I won't be able to function at all anymore.

My boyfriend (samesex couple)and I have been together nearly 7 years. While I am still in love with him, these past two years I've felt as if I've been a placeholder for him. Due to a declining interest in sex between us we agreed to occassionally invite a third. However, he only seems to find interest in my friends... which makes me feel even worse about myself. On top of that... i think he may have cheated on me with one of them.

I have a regular job, and what I thought were good friends, but since I've recently broken my foot and haven't been able to do much my friends have become non-existent. No one wants to come see me, and no one wants to hang out, or talk to me.

I feel like I'm going through so much shit alone and no one has my back when I've always been the go to for advice. I've always laid my problems, fears, and concerns to the side for others. I'm tired of hurting and crying to myself. Im tired losing confidence in myself. Even if I wanted to live, I dont think I'd ever find myself again. That person is long gone.