Yet again as I post here wanting someone to talk to or even just some support and no one really comes to my aid. I've been contemplating suicide for the past few months now. Posting on here for those few months has shown me that humanity's main goal is to watch its kin die. Maybe I should just give in to the voice in my head that tells me that I am a worthless piece of shit that no one wants. That I'm not worth it to anybody. Every attempt at a relationship has ended up with me hurt, tossed aside like Woody or Jessi from Toy Story, with my own self worth going down the shitter. Everyone I talk to says to live for myself. Do everything I can for myself, but when I do I get called selfish. I'm so sick of the double edged sword of double standards. I feel like I have no reason to live, no purpose anymore. I feel like when I ask for help no one hears me. No one sees me. I'm just a ghost who everyone can't see but always manages to find a nerve to hurt me. I don't want to be Atlas or Prometheus anymore. Maybe I should just end everything but I don't want to die. That's why I keep posting here. I need someone to believe that I can get past this. I do think I'm starting to go down the realm of self harm. I punched a wall with both of my fists. I got a bruise on one hand and the other I split my knuckle open. I guess I just needed to get this out. I'm kinda drunk and we'll see what nightmares I have tonight. I might just start writing my goodbye letter. Thanks Reddit! (for nothing)