Title says it all. I’ve felt like a lost cause lately because I can’t get my ex out of my head or my heart. I care a lot about her and miss her like fucking crazy and I haven’t heard from her since last Wednesday. We didn’t end on bad terms even though she cheated on me and I was hospitalized for suicidal thoughts. I feel hopeless and like a complete waste of time to anyone. I’m 26 and never lived up to my own expectations and I feel like I’ve been letting everyone down. My friends tell me I’m the strongest person they know after everything I’ve endured which when I look back at it and how I felt I think I was being over dramatic and childish. My career is shit I’m in a dead end job, I live with my parents. I feel like I’m a pathetic loser who will have nothing to show in life. I’ve been going to therapy even though I can’t afford it but its days like today when I know she’s not working this weekend that I want to be with her or at least talk to her.

Edit: TL;DR no one seems to give a shit about this ghost.