Recently my boyfriend broke up with me, it would have almost been 3 years, I expected this to happened... Though it seems it's the drop that makes me go crazy right now. I have zero friends or social skills, I'm an alcoholic and I have zero passion or goals in life. It's really depressing. I've been "just living" for the past 4 years or so. Not really doing anything proactive. Just drinking myself to coma every night. Oh and I moved city for him, because of his school... I started school too but now I think it'll be too much. He was my only friend, the only person I talked to... Now I'm entirely lonely in this new city that I don't know. I'm really thinking about killing myself, it hurts so much. Tried before, but didn't have the courage, but now I think the pain is present enough to do it...