I am so ready to end my life, I can’t just take it anymore, I don’t wanna live. Honestly, if I were to die, I don’t think anyone would care and it would make everyone’s life easier as I’m just a screw up and all I do is make mistake after mistake. No one’s gonna miss me. People will probably even be relieved that they don’t have to deal with me anymore. I messed up really bad and I didn’t think that this decision I made with mess up my relationship with my parents really badly and my cousins. I didn’t even think that what I did was really bad but now seeing how everyone reacting to me I think I messed up pretty badly and I don’t think I can come back from it. I can’t live with the guilt anymore and the way that I hurt my parents. I can’t live with that and the disappointment face they have when they look at me just kills me inside. to make everyone’s life easier I’m just gonna kill myself. I already wrote my suicide note and I am planning to do it after New Year’s. I’m not going into the year 2025 when nothing could happen in my life and it’s just bad luck at luck. maybe I’m not meant to be on this earth anymore. Maybe my time has come to an end and I’m okay with that because I have nothing to live for anymore