Where do I even start? That I never even wanted to be born maybe? That social services could have taken me away? I’ve experienced a traumatic childhood that’s cool I guess but since my teenage years I’ve been suicidal I ended up getting help in May2022 for being treated for depression, bipolar disorder, OCD, and anxiety. Life was good after that and the thoughts went away. I was so happy for once but life does its tricks. What does overdosing feel like? Either way I’m going to ingest over 90 pills this weekend because I’m done. I’m happy for the life I’ve lived so far. I found happiness in every shitty situation. I’ve made great friends. To say it’s selfish to leave your friends is terrible because I want to choose me this time. Everything is planned I don’t want no one to find me but police. I don’t know what I want from here saying all this. Mods on Reddit usually take my shit down 🤣 I’ll be surprised if this is accepted. Nothing ever goes my way ever. Hopefully I create the best drink this weekend because I’m done