I think Abilify is making me suicidal. I’m going to stop taking it. I’ve wasted my whole life being in the wrong dose of ADHD medications. I can’t take it anymore. I fucked up all I needed was a lower dose. I keep beating myself up over it. On the wrong dose things were so bad & hard. I never thought it was right I just knew that I needed it. Now I have no life, no skills, no hobbies, no job, no degree… All my life I spent going crazy on the wrong meds. I’m 47 now how am I supposed to cope. I used to feel okay being on Disability with my section 8 & having a disabled life. Now, I just can’t take it anymore I don’t smoke pot anymore I don’t abuse my meds anymore & I didn’t realize it that I was wasting my life before now it’s all I notice that I missed everything & everything I did didn’t matter. I don’t know how to cope I just want to go back it time which would take killing myself. Which I’m not likely too. It just I think the feeling stems from Abilify cropping my dopamine so it feels like nothing matters & it’s supposed to be a miracle that I finally got it right. I know the right dose now. But when I stop the Abilify I have to stop the Adderall. My life is going to be really hard. I’ll have to go on Qelbree that might help but it can’t be as good at working as Adderall. I just can’t believe I’ve wasted my whole life I didn’t mean to do it I didn’t know now it’s just I don’t have a life I can’t work & it’s killing me. All I did was take the wrong doses & because crazy for 26 years I abused my meds & now I have a guardianship over me so I can’t get my meds right. Does anyone have any way of explaining to me that I haven’t wasted my life I mean that some day I can get a job & it pick up where I left off. I’m just going to bed this Abilify makes me so tired 😪 All I did was be messed up for 26 years & now I can’t get it right. I just wanna die but I don’t really want to kill myself. It will all work out it’s just going to take time getting over this Abilify Injection I never should have gone on it I should have taken Qelbree then but they dangled Adderall over my head you get that if you take Abilify now I don’t even want to be alive Abilify sucks but being off of my Adderall sucks just as much. I hope Qelbree helps. I wasted my whole life now I don’t have one that’s how I feel just TV & a Cat it just isn’t good enough.