I hate myself. I’m overweight, fat, ugly, covered in stretch marks and years of self harm scars. The person that has my heart is poly and has a girlfriend of 6 years, and I always feel like I’m taking him away from her when we see each other. I don’t even think he really likes me, I don’t know what he wants. I’m stupid and incapable of things everyone else does so easily. I don’t have any talent, I’m just taking space. I wish I wasn’t such a pussy. I know I should just get it over with and kill myself. I think I might drop off my dog with my parents tonight and not come back. I’m never going to be worth anything, and I’m never going to achieve any of the things I want. I’m not destined for love, friends, a career, a life.. I just want to close my eyes and not wake up again.