I just really want to be done right now. I'm divorced after 25 years. She turned my kids against me. I've always been a provider for my family. I don't have them any longer. Wtf do I do now. I don't feel like a man now that my family has turned their backs on me. I go to work, its the emptiness that I feel. I don't feel like contribute anything to anybody. My guns got from me already, my knives are dull, barely breaking the skin. I want to release some of this pain with my blood. I fucking hate this. I don't have anyone I feel like I can turn too. I fucking hate being placated. I think I'm going to go sharpen my knives. Atleast it will be easier for myself. Fml