It feels like I’m living in a dream. More like a nightmare if you ask me. I dread waking up everyday with the thought of having to work for the rest of my life as a corporate slave with nothing to show in return. Ever since I was a young girl I’ve always dealt with depression from traumatic events and devastating circumstances. I am socially and emotionally awkward (I believe I have Autism), depressed and suicidal, highly anxious and have a hard time focusing on tasks (ADHD), have zero friends and barely any family except my mom. I want to cry myself to sleep and never wake up. It’s bad enough that I’m also in physical pain from chronic illness. Someone please tell me everything I’ve known was a lie.