what reason is there to stay for when you’re 19 if you have only a few friends, not even close, a job you hate, and no family that loves you. i’ve felt this way since i was about 8 and it’s been me constantly committing and then saying oh it’ll get better, but it never does. i say oh my life will get better too, it never does. probably never will. my body is something no one will truly love, myself being something someone will never love because i am too far gone. so why stay if im basically already gone? i’ve lived my whole life just trying to be happy and yeah sometimes it works but the rest i wish i was just a pool on the floor.