Today I'm taking my life. I can't take it anymore. I've never felt more alone in my life. I leave behind 4 children and have one grandchild on the way. I'm so unlike my family that this kinda makes sense. And the only person I feel a closeness to doesn't love me and is so mean to me I can not take it. My heart that supposed to only pump my blood actually hurts. But I still love her. I always will. Don't blame her tho. She's had it bad and she don't know what she's doing. Pray for her. I'm not condoning this act I'm just expressing myself. I wrote my letters already and am going to hang myself here soon. I have to lock my dog out of the room or go outside to some trees if not. Haven't decided yet. Its a nice night so I may do it outside.. to my kids loved ones I love you I'm sorry. . To my enemies I forgive you. And to her I love you and I forgive you. I'm sorry

Sincerely J.A.L.R.

p.n

God forgive if you can . If not we'll we know the rest.

Almost forgot It's just a thought not gonna do it. No need to panic and send cops thanks