I can't take it. I can't fucking take this anymore. I've been hurting for 7 fucking years and it's killing me. I was just diagnosed with fibromyalgia last month and was all hopeful about finally knowing the problem or at least one of the problems (if there's more I can be diagnosed with) but it's all bullshit. I'm not getting better. I'm too fucking lazy to give a shit about myself anymore. I tried to be "pure", "healthy" blah blah but all that led to was disordered eating and self hatred. I'm done trying to be better. these bullshit pills mr doctor man gave me don't work. my back and legs have been killing me all day. and me and my family dont even know how to navigate my illness. cause its so intermittent and unpredictable. and I can't find the right pain relief patches online either. I wanna fucking die. and I just wrote this bullshit essay for class on how I'm so strong and so resilient for being ill. shut up dumb bitch you're fucking weak. you're 18 and can't even walk normally shut the fuck up

MY FUCKING BACK IS KILLING ME I CANT SLEEP AND I HAVE SHIT TO DO TOMORROW ITS 4 AM FUCK