i’m sick and tired of life, people may go and say that i’m just being ungrateful and that other people would love to have my life, then let them have it, i don’t care, i’m gonna kill myself anyways, i don’t know when but im certain that it will be soon. i’ve had 6 attempts and people would convince me that it’s a miracle from God, i pray to God to actually come and take me, i don’t know where this post is going, all i know is that i just want to die, it’s not helping that my mental shit is so bad, it’s like my own mind is my personal hell, constantly torturing me. sometimes people get shocked that i’m “suicidal” due to the fact that i look “happy” a lot of the times, but i have to because my parents, specifically my dad told me that it’s so embarrassing that people may find me suicidal, i also have some cuts and he told me that people would think i’m crazy or nuts. can someone just please give me a reason to live, i just fucking hate myself and i’ll do myself a favor and will attempt suicide again.