my life has been so quiet lately nothing is happening i got no reason to be this sad n it’s killing that’s for no reason i wish there were reasons for why i feel the way i do, all i know is that i want to be gone i’m bored which makes me do stupid shi like fucking around w strangers it’s also bc i’m alone too which explains alot of the things i’ve been doing lately i don’t like it i just wanna feel something i feel so empty n hollow, i don’t know what to do w myself or in my life in general i don’t know anything but if there’s something i rlly know is that i want to die n i can’t stop thinking abt it everyday every hour every minute every second i just can’t stop it’s driving me insane i keep imagining my dead body n i’m watching myself dead n i look so relieved it feels real but not real enough to comfort me. can i do it. i just refuse to live n it’s so hard to stay alive when all i do is rejecting my life n myself n everything else. i’m in so much pain n i don’t want to take that on me yk