i don’t even know how i’m gonna get started on this but all i want to say is that i absolutely have no purpose in this world whatsoever, i was born just to what? i never asked to be here anyways. i feel as if it’s a waste of time to live, i’ve been trying to kill myself these past few years and none of them worked (my attempts) and i don’t know what to feel, i honestly thought i’d be dead earlier in my life since i always told myself when i was young that i didn’t want to live any longer and it’s such a joke that i’m still here, it also sucks that having a mental disorder is like the fucking cherry on top, making it hard for me to think clearly and feel like a normal person, my mind clouded with so much hatred for myself and life itself.