I'm tired. I been fighting for so long and too long. I think I'm on the verge of my tenth and final Impact.

1st Impact : My daughter was a stillborn, became an drunk wanted to die. I recovered thanks to my grandad helping me out. Mum got breast cancer and resulted in her losing left breast. Grandad got ill and died 4 days after Xmas.

2nd Impact : Suing both train station and old work place. I shattered my funny bone in left my left arm. I lost my best friend because I wouldn't allow him to cheat. I was tired of the abuse he gave me plus the friends around me just wanting me for money than been there for me.

3rd Impact : Suicidal attempts

4th Impact : Memory block undone which caused a lot of trauma. Memories of been raped by a "family friend" or "uncle".

5th Impact : Unable to save friend in time, kills herself by taking painkillers and drinking. Left me very depressed and got assaulted by a female manager at the prison. Ended up losing my job due to them saying it was my word against hers.

6th Impact : I started to look after my Dad whilst putting my health on hold. His Dad died a week before Xmas. We later found out that sewage was coming through his kitchen sink and bathroom. This meant the council had no choice but to move him since the place was registered unliveable.

7th Impact : Dad started chatting online to a "woman" who catfished him and conned him out of 18 grand. Despite words from the police proving this was not a real woman, he STILL send her more money and promised everyone he would stop doing this. Due to this I developed ticks and became light and sound sensitive.

8th Impact : Death of my auntie or more to the point, murdered. My relationship with my ex ended after 4 and a half years together. Of all the places she dumped me while we was on the cruise so we still had to share the same bed and the rest of the holiday. It was the 18th anniversary of my daughter.

9th Impact : B's cat, Misha was put down in front of us and it was done in a horribe way. Week and a half later, B's mum came in the room and said she can't go on anymore and wanted to die. Called an ambulance for her, told my work place. Next day, I was let go from my workplace and found out that B's mum had Bowel Cancer. She hadn't gone toilet in 12 days so she was completely bunged up. If I didn't call the ambulance and get her seen, she could of died if it kept on going.

10th (Final) Impact : Spend time with a old friend of 15 years, left her place due to been abusive by her mentally. Said I was sexually harassing and abusing her which caused me to question my whole life. She then messaged B the saying I did all of this which ended my relationship with B since I felt that I wasn't trusted no more. Former workplace says to me I owe nearly 2 grand to them months after I left the company. In the process to counter the claim due to bullying I faced from former work member. Mum threatened me and was made homeless the next day. The one woman I loved no longer talks to me who is across the world. I'm completely alone.

I'm finished. I can't keep going like this. I have no one left. I'm alone.