After the first of the year I magically stumbled onto the correct combination of internet search clicks that delivered me the method of self-determined dying I have been looking for basically my whole life. It came with links even, to find the components necessary! I set about starting to make plans!

A month later I have discovered that the site that sells the main component I need doesn't ship to the US and trying to find it anywhere else is like trying to find somewhere to buy a black market kidney (or at least, what I imagine that would be like anyways).

I am so irritated. I just spent the better part of 2 hours scouring the internet for something you would think would be ✨️incredibly✨️ easy to purchase, only to end up feeling like I have been slamming my head into a brick wall.

I just, want to find, PEACE. 😡