Turned 34 today and I have achieved exactly nothing with my life. No money to my name because of Credit Card debt. Buying things makes me very happy for a short time so I'm always buying shiny new things. I'm living with my mom, not paying rent. I don't leave the house except for work or food. I've never been in a single relationship, still a virgin. I'm probably addicted to hentai/porn and I don't use that word lightly as it has affected my life in the past. I'm a loser, a failure, a disappointment, and every other insult you can throw at me. I don't deserve to get better, I don't want to get better, I can't imagine what better is. I've waisted every opportunity I've been presented and all I want to do is now is rot away. I have no one to blame except myself and year after year I become a more broken version of myself.

So happy birthday to me. My wish this year is that I don't live to see 35.