What I mean is, I have my plan, and I wish I had someone in my life I could talk to about it while I prepare who wouldn't just either try to talk me out of it or send me straight to the psych ward.

I'm at peace with my decision, and I have some time left before I do it. I have some things I need to do before I can move ahead, and I'd like to try to enjoy (as much as I'm capable) that time.

But I'd also like to talk to someone about the things that are on my mind about it. I just know that I can't. I can't do that with the people in my life. They wouldn't understand, and they wouldn't support me.

It does make me feel alone, and a little sad. But that's always how I've felt in my life...so par for the course I suppose. Just needed to vent this thought somewhere. Thanks for listening. 🖤💜🖤