2023 went to shit. I hate my job of 30 years but I'm stuck. Can't make near that much starting over. Getting a divorce, and my girlfriend dumped me for a crush. The crush went to hell. Guy doesn't even make a good friend. I impatiently lay my case out again and last night she text we could try again 5 hours later she doesn't want to date me. Today she's just brickwalled me with I just don't have feelings anymore. Last night though she was just saying the reason was fear of commitment. She was my best friend and I love her so much. Never felt like this. I think about her all the time. She was wonderful and now it will never be. I just have had too much hurt in my life to want to do it again. Before 2024 comes around I'm done.