I've been chronically ill, detoxing of weed and dealing with a rough breakup. It seems there Is absolutely no were I can go to find peace. I've also been dealing with horrible anxiety and depression to - my anxiety makes it hard for me to go to sleep. I wish I had to courage to leave this life as it no longer gives me pleasure. I want to die peacefully and quickly but I don't have a method. I could overdose on the meds my doctor gave me but i can't see to go through with it. I have no one left to live for - I don't have family, lovers or freinds . I wish I could jump from a high building but that sounds way to painful or maybe I could suffocate myself in my sleep.

I have such horrible thoughts about cutting my self again and my wrists. I want all the bad feelings to bleed out. I envy those who got it over with it and completed their mission - I mean we all have to die someday right? So why not die on our own terms?

My cat is all I have left and even that's not enough to keep me here.