I came really close to finally doing it today and only stopped because I got scared it wouldn’t work. If I’m able to sleep tonight I hope I don’t wake up but I know there’s no reason I won’t. Just to get up, go to work, come home and be wanting to die the whole time. It’s not fair, we as humans have free will and can do almost anything we want to do, why can’t I choose death, why do I have to keep living and struggling everyday just to line the people above me’s pockets, just to be an emotionally exhausted cog in a broken machine. I want my choice to matter and not be told there’s something wrong with me for wanting it. Everybody has different dreams and mine is to die, why can’t my dream matter but everyone else’s can