I'm divorced, my father died a long time ago he was a bright light in my life. He raised me after my parents divorced. My mother is quite corrupt almost evil. Divorce happened a few years ago. Ex-wife felt I didn't have enough ambition. It's true, I only wanted our basic needs covered. She asked for the divorce. I only have some photos from my Dad and a few boxes of possession to my name.

I have a soulless job, that's very physical. What I don't know or understand is what's the purpose of life? I'm too tired after working the week I sleep alot on my days off. I'm unlikely to have kids at 40. Won't be able to buy a house or car. No vacations to sun filled destinations.
Doing my soulless job for another 20 plus years with no prospects of anything rewarding is disheartening to say the least. Why continue living if unhappy and with no purpose.
If I knew I'd become as happy as I was when my dad was alive I'd push on.