Turns out, I forgot to lock the door to the bank I clean. Customer saw it, reported it to the police, and now everyone at my job is furious. Now they're saying I forgot to lock the door five times.

My manager informed me I'm on the brink of losing my job...I can't lose this job. I can't do anything right. I try to hard at my career and I fail every time. All of my life is just a history of failure and I can't fucking take it anymore. I fucking hate that I have to still live with my parents. I feel pathetic every single goddamn day I wake up.

It doesn't help I'm autistic. I can barely talk to people. I suffer from panic attacks when people are angry with me. It's so hard to make friends, nonetheless a girlfriend (I've given up). I can barely handle stress. I keep thinking of ending it.

How am I gonna succeed at anything if I can't even be a fucking custodian? I can't even remember to lock a door.

I just want to be good at ONE THING. I just want to show people I'm not TOTALLY FUCKING USELESS.