I'm 18 just about to turn 19 and my parent kicked me out the house for smoking weed about 5 months ago whilst they actually smoked too then I became homeless and jobless couch hopping my mental heath and never been good since I was little but I just pushed it all away until I met my bf which open me up and came with all the depressive feeling with it he made me feel safe and secure but he ended up cheating on me when I was at my worst and didn't feel bad until he saw it made me sad (I've forgiving him cause I love him) I've been non stop trying to push on get a job and a house which I managed too get but not even 2 weeks in I'm getting evicted bringing me to square one again. everytime I cross a bridge I get an urge to jump. I also think if my cousin didn't kill himself earlier this year it would of been me. there's so much more going on but I just can't type it and all I'm doing is ranting pls I just need someone to talk too